I have to be honest, I am really struggling this week.
I have struggled with anxiety since I was a kid. It comes in waves and has been more intense and then barely noticeable at different points in my life.
This past week it has been mounting and spilled over into a full-blown anxiety attack yesterday.
I truly hate talking about this and sharing it with everyone. I feel ashamed and embarrassed. However, one of the few things I have learned is that it really is OK to not be OK and although it may feel isolating at times, I know I am not the only one.
My spiritual sister helps remind me that it is OK to not have it completely together all the time and that perfection is truly an illusion. I feel more authentic and open being honest with my struggles although there is still apart of that feels I should have this figured out and under control by now. I am a counselor and a yoga teacher, why haven’t I worked through this yet?
And yet, another part of me knows how hard I have worked through this and I know enough about anxiety to know it is a journey and probably will not ever completely disappear. It will constantly be something I have to sort and work through.
Whether you are struggling with anxiety or something else today, I want to tell you that it’s OK to not be OK. You are not broken, defective or crazy. You are not alone. You are not the only one. No one is perfect or has it all together, no matter what type of image you may perceive they are portraying.
Do you believe it is OK to not be OK sometimes?