Lately, I find myself coming back to gratitude again and again. More than once last week, I woke up in an awful mood and had to talk myself back into gratitude and happiness.
I text Ed through my grouchiness and he helps me put in perspective that I really do not have it that bad. He reminds of this house he visited when he was in Mexico a few months ago, that literally only had a sheet as a roof. A sheet. Seriously, I have nothing to complain about. Sometimes, I just need reminders.
However, I do feel that it is valid and important to feel my feelings, examine and analyze, but not dwell in the negativity.
One thing I identified that I needed was some alone time. I needed some down time to JUST BE. My body made sure this happened and started showing signs of exhaustion and sickness creeping in. Sometimes when we don’t listen the first time, the body speaks louder and I felt more than off as this week approached.
I took some time to myself. I sat in the sun, drank healing juice (turmeric + apple) journaled, meditated and read. It was long overdue and better than any over the counter medicine.
Over the weekend, after reflecting on where I blog has been, I came to the conclusion that I haven’t left my Catholic traditions behind me; and by traditions I mean: guilt and shame. As I move forward in life, I’m looking to broaden my perspective on spirituality and how to express it. This means I’ll have to venture outside of my Catholic heritage and discover other ways of connecting with the divine.
For the last two weeks, I’ve been attending Agape International Spiritual Center in Los Angeles and it has blown me away. Angelina and I will be attending a service together in the near future and blog about it in our Field trip section. This experience has definitely pointed me in the right direction when it comes to looking outside of my comfort zone.
The vision I have for myself is to create a spiritual life in which I use all my human capabilities to its fullest. As I’ve learned over the last couple of months, I only have this one life to make the best of it and I plan on shifting my energy in that direction. I don’t want to find myself in the next couple of years sitting in front of a T.V eating a chocolate cake from Ralfs wondering what happened to my life. I need to take this life and fight, fight, fight!