One of my intentions this year is to tell the universe what I want; to begin speaking my desires and not be ashamed, embarrassed or scared to put it out there and get support in making it happen.
Last week was my first week back at work, after a glorious two weeks off. It took some time to get adjusted back to my routine and I was immediately hit with some work negativity. On my second day back, I was annoyed, frustrated and not looking forward to my job. I really hate feeling that way. I want to have joy in all I do and let compassion and love flow out to all I come in contact with each day.
I have a thirty minute commute to my job and there is a lot of spiritual work that occurs in that time. I have used that time to pray, chant, state intentions, repeat mantras, sing, rap, cry and talk to myself. Fellow drivers must think I am nuts.
I used my drive to work that day, to air my grievances. I told God, the universe, Stevie Nicks, anyone who would listen aloud what was bothering me. I did not filter myself and I let it ALL out. Then, I talked through re-framing those situations and finding gratitude for the opportunity to learn and grow.
I did feel silly talking to myself, but I also felt incredibly relieved and ready to meet my tasks for the day with joy.
I am going to stop pretending that things are OK all the time. When I need to call on my guides to help me, I will.
Sometimes, you just have to say it.