Mariah, Mariah, Mariah. I was absolutely entranced by her voice, her essence and her beauty when I first heard her music. My earliest Mariah memory is seeing her video for “Emotions” and wondering how someone could essentially make screaming sound so beautiful.
Like most young girls of the 90s, I tried to sing along and pretended that I knew something about the heart break and love expressed in her songs.
A new Mariah emerged after her first divorce. I was in middle school when “Fantasy” came out and excitedly accepted this sexier, edgier version of Mariah. I lived for the opening sequence to the “Fantasy” video and would eagerly await for it to play on MTV (when they still played music videos). I loved the roller coaster portion and wanted to roller skate around a board walk in short shorts.
She explored more incorporation of hip-hop with her next album, which totally fit with my growing music interests. It gave me something to sing and dance to and I was loving her new outfits, make-up and hairstyle. She was pure perfection to me.
In 2001, the same year I graduated from high school, it all started to become too much for Mariah. She was stressed, over worked and under too much pressure. Her erratic behavior was unfortunately captured on MTV’s TRL during a surprise visit where she handed out ice cream. It was a little awkward.
I was worried about her and hoped she would have an amazing comeback (which she did). But, in that time I realized just how human she was and the person I had been idolizing this whole time was not above the effects of life.
No one is above the crazy when it hits.
I am surprised she held it all together for as long as she did. She experienced so much, at such a young age. She had so many people who relied on her and had opinions about her life, talent and decision making.
Even with all her money, talent, fame and prestige, she still felt the effects of life’s craziness.
I am still hoping for visions of love for you, Mariah.
In love & sisterhood,
“Butterflies are always following me, everywhere I go.”- Mariah Carey
As a beginner in the spiritual seeking world, one of the things I still struggle with is celebrity culture. I love it! I guess it’s because deep down inside I still want to believe that money, fame and beauty guarantee happiness. But time and time again, there are many celebrities who are more than willing to break any glass ceiling that sustains them.
Mariah Carey recently signed a huge contract to perform in Vegas over the next year. And if any celebrity can dispel the idea that fame and fortune guarantee happiness it’s the Elusive Chanteuse herself. Over the last several months Mariah has shown why she needs to leave the big city for the more reflective desert.
Over the holiday she was set to perform during the Christmas tree lighting ceremony at Rockefeller Center. In order to prepare for the live event, the show was scheduled to be taped the day before so that editing could be used as well as a chance for her Lambs to watch her perform.
Mariah wasn’t having any of it. She was in full melt – down mode. I guess she felt it was too cold and needed to turn up the heat.
Instead of taking full advantage of an edited live performance (I hear cold weather really doesn’t work for the voice) Mariah decided to keep her fans, as well as the television crew waiting for three hours while she handled personal business. What could have been a great performance ended up getting canceled with many fans disappointed after waiting in the cold for many hours. The next day, she did perform live but with a back up track in the background where her flaws were recorded for all to hear. Watch live performance here.
Mariah is still a beautiful singer and a true talent but as sister Angelina said, “No one is above the crazy when it hits.”
P.S Angelina and I are planning to see her when she comes to the Colosseum – he he.
“I’m gettin’ a new coat!”